Suicidal Ideations

Suicidal ideations

Thirty seconds is enough to create the notion

Where’s the darkest place your mind can go

Time overlooks you regardless, welcome to the sideshow

Fear creeps in without warning

Sending smoke signals like a fire mid morning

Can you free yourself from yourself

Releasing what reflects as shackles

Fantasize & romanticize your disappearance

Drowning in so called safe spaces that aren’t yours

Put the car in drive, you see the turn but don’t have the clearance

Old monsters walking back in on you

Using words to cast shadows in the dark

Your words

Like swords cutting deep into what’s left of your subconscious

Pray that this leaves you unconscious

Pain is always mental not physical

Stop the bleeding, hide the scars

Convince yourself it’s comfortable

False narratives constructed with false confidence

Constantly holding your words

working overtime to shift the paradigm

Cracking your chest wide open

No human way to feel this all the time

See your head clear in momentary solace

Work done on the inside

Even a broken soul can glisten in the right place

Progress made on the outside

Deep breath

Find another way to escape this death